Authoring is Hard

Yes, I'm feeling a bit defeated right now.

I've been on this authoring journey for a while now. Honestly, my goal was to publish in 2019. It is currently April 2022 and I still don't have a first draft done.

While I currently have my short piece published in Stand for Ukraine and am technically a published author (YAY me!) I feel that to feel fully accomplished and officially published, I need to do it on my own and not in a box set or anthology. I need to publish MY OWN book on MY OWN and at the moment, I feel like it's going to be a few more years before I do it. And it just depresses me.

Don't get me wrong. I have a ton of ideas. They swim in my head all day long, but... getting them written down is almost impossible at the moment.

What if I write this here and then this happens? Wait, I liked how it was before and maybe I'll just add it over here instead. Why don't I just not add it at all? But then the added suspense...

All these thoughts swim in my head as well, making me doubt myself and my story. So, bare with me a little longer while I clear my head and try to get something done. <3